i'm dumped!

oh boy!

i certainly believe that there's a right time for everything.

i've also trained and conditioned my mind to think rationally. 

however, there are just some things i could not control.

i am a girl.

i have been amazed a lot of times about how stuffs work, how beautiful concepts become, how wonderful the creations were made..

but most importantly, i have also been amazed and inspired by a lot of people..

some of these beautiful people are my crushes..

i am the kind of girl who is attracted by the kind of guy who's smart, a gentleman and maybe a bit handsome.

i had a lot of crushes, most of them i have gotten over with.. haha.. 

okay, so this is part of an evaluation of myself..

let's look back a bit..

here are my crushes:

1. R (grade 1)
2. G (grade 1)
3. C (grade 3)
4. A (grade 4)
5. I (grade 5 or 6)
6. J (high school)
7. A (high school)
8. DS (3rd yr high school)
9. N (1st yr college)
10. L (1st yr college)
11. L.. (1st yr college)
12. R (1st yr college)
13. R (1st yr college)
14. Jeepney driver (2nd yr college)
15. P (2nd yr college)
16. G (2nd yr college)
17. Kyouhei (2nd yr college)
18. V (2nd yr college)
19. MR (3rd yr college)
20. A (3rd yr college)
21. R (3rd yr college)
22. Jeepney seatmate (4th yr college)
23. T (4th year college)
24. J (4th year college)
25. J (2013 summer)
26. T (2013 summer)
27. J (2013 summer)
28. L (2013 summer)
29. V (2013 summer)

 so here i am.. thinking about that one person i haven't gotten over with yet..

sometimes .. alright, it's weird to ask, but.. sometimes i ask why can't we be at least..friends?

okaaay.. i know that would be quite impossible.. especially when most of my crushes aren't my friends..

i just don't know why i always feel so defeated whenever i have a new crush..

in the first place, it's just a crush!

oh great!

29 and couunting?